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Feeling sad this morning.  Sally has been here since June 23 and has been a tremendous help to us.  She's leaving early Tuesday, and I'm having a hard time with her going back home.  Until she got here, I hadn't realized how sick I've really been.  And no, having her here hasn't made me sick.   It's just having someone with energy to do the work around the house that I can't made me realize how little energy I've had for so long.  It seems like years since the house has been this clean, and everyone in the family has been appreciating it. 

Sally has also made more meals for us than I usually do, even when I'm well.  It's going to be hard on all of us to go back to our status quo.  I think I'll be accepting a lot more help from church and friends than I had been before.  As I've told John many times, I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. 

It was a major accomplishment Friday that I made dinner -- spaghetti and meatballs from frozen meatballs, jarred spaghetti sauce and angel hair pasta.  And I was wiped out afterward.  Sally cleaned up the kitchen while I sat in my chair.    She says she doesn't mind, and I'm sure she doesn't.  I appreciate her so much. 

I think it's harder to be left than to leave, if you know what I mean.  If I was leaving her home to return to mine, I think I'd still be sad, but not as much as I am now. 

I'll get through it.  I always do.  It's just no fun.